miss it!

I miss blogging! ahmp. I have no longer enough time to do blogging and besides i have limited access on the internet now.huhu. I'm busy with my current work. I now used to go home late from office. Luckily tonight, I was able to go home early before 7 pm.

Hoping to post more updates... hehe.

at this moment

Next week is going to be a totally different world! Well, next week will start my training on my new employer. I'm feeling a bit excited yet i have this feeling also of sadness, mixed emotions though. I feel sad because I'm gonna miss my previous office mates, the fun and bonding we had. huhu. I can really say that I enjoyed being and working with them even for a quite short time. Actually, I'm really having hard times thinking or deciding on the opportunities that I am confronted with right now. Well, i have to choose whether to stay with my current job or to pursue with one of my dreams to work in a bank. Both of them are close to my heart so I need to discern. It really made me think so seriously and to consider some factors so that i can decide rightly. Until, i made my decision, a fixed decision.

I filed a resignation so I can start processing everything that I need to process. I was really hesitated to submit the resignation letter because I don't want them to think silly thoughts and also I don't wanna see their emotions of my leaving from work. When the superiors in the office knew about my resignation, one of them confessed something that touched me heartily. My boss told me some of the things during their conversation like their appreciation with my little contribution and their positive feelings towards me while working with them. Somehow, despite of my shortcomings they as well appreciated me. When my boss confessed about it to me by phone, my tears flew down suddenly and my throat got stocked up while trying to stop my tears. I was trying to clear my throat before i spoke so he won't notice me. Luckily, he didn't. Well, I'm just thankful for everything despite of everything. hehe. haay. I just can't express my deepest emotions into words.

Now, I always pray to God to guide me with my decision, to continue blessing me in everything I do especially in my career and family. And, of course I always ask for forgiveness :(. I just wish that everything would be smooth as I continue my journey and facing challenges and struggles of life.

May 1, 2010

May 1 is a Labor day. In this year, since it falls on Saturday the holiday was moved on Monday. So, employees particularly the Government Offices would really enjoy a long holiday! Hmmm. Anyway, in my personal matter this date marked a remarkable point in life. Why? hmm. Well, it's just that the DAMAGE HAS BEEN DONE. This is how i can simply and accurately describe the incident which becomes remarkable for me. Haayy, it's quite regretful! I don't understand my feelings on that day due to mixed emotions. I wanted to cry yet it's like my mind tried to question me for doing so. My mind is like saying "It happened already, you can't blame anyone else anymore. So. move on and don't let it happen again". Haayy! How i really wish that i could have full control over it. Now i can recall when the times I said to others and to myself that it's impossible to happen to me though I'm not closing my thoughts that it wouldn't happen, it's possible to happen. Well, let me just keep it to myself for now about this burden or the cause of everything of what I'm saying here. I'm a type of person who's very secretive and silent because i just want privacy. My purpose of posting it here is just to unload this heavy feelings i have which I can't dare to open up to somebody else. I don't have the strength yet to share the whole story.

Like I've said, I'm having regrets with the incident happened because it was too unfair. One is not deserving. It would be special though if one deserves it. Well, I excused this moment for now but when it happened for many times, it would be crazy and stupid anymore! I might cursed the one involved and it would be hard for me to forgive myself.

2 Thumbs Up!

Today, we attended the product seminar of SAMSUNG IT Products & Solutions at Marco Polo Hotel Davao City. It was a satisfactory training and was conducted by the the Sales Technical from Manila. For the first time, I enjoyed and appreciated the seminar or training. So far, it was my third time to attend this kind of seminar/training in my job right now but I appreciate this seminar more and enjoy it more. Well, we arrived an hour late at the venue, as expected we sat at the last row. At first, while listening and trying to absorb the information being discussed by the speaker I find myself so drowsy. It's quite hard to listen like it goes out from my one ear to the other. The lunch time hit and everybody felt hungry. I got excited since i was really after of the food and take lunch at the seminar. hehe. If i know, everyone has this thought too. When the speaker finished discussing the second part of the seminar, we lively fell in the line to get foods since it was served in buffet style. Wow! The foods were so yummy and delicious!hehe. I really loved the served foods and tasted a number of foods. Yum! While we're still eating, the speaker continued the discussion and proceeded to the next activity. And, our next activity was the group workshop. I never thought that we would be grouped into a big group of 10 and we, from Powertech were grouped with the Samsung-Dvo branch participants as well as the Emcor participants. I really enjoyed our group workshop. We were just given a set of questionaire to fill in our answers based on what have been discussed with the handouts and brochures. What we did to make it fast was we divided the pages in the group and luckily we finished answering ahead of time. Well, I can say that we did our part and there was really a teamwork. Naks! Fortunately, we won! Our group got the highest score among the other groups and each of us in our group was given a sling netbook bag with the SAMSUNG tag as our prize. Our group felt overwhelmed. We then had a picture taking while holding our prize. Wow! It was really overwhelming. I met new faces there as well!

For me, it was a great experience and i was enjoying. I appreciated more the seminar especially when they gave us a SAMSUNG Sign pen with a case as a souvenir! It was nice! Thus, it made my day and my mood happy and gay. Looking forward to attend and encounter the same or more enjoyable seminar or training to come. :)

Reminds me of "You"

There I go. I'm loving the songs entitled COLLIDE by Howie Day and SCIENTIST by Coldplay at this time. Though these are no longer new to my ears and i have already heard these years ago, I still find these so fresh, inspiring but they remind me of Someone. Someone who... shall I say..ahmmm. who put stain in my unstained life. Well, let me just keep it to myself about the stain it caused. I won't just bother to elaborate it here. hmm.

Anyway, it started when I opened my cousin's computer and found a compiled acoustic songs from different artists a folder labeled, MP3. Then, I tried and started to play first the song, Collide. I didn't notice until a number of music were played when one particular song playing has the title SCIENTIST by coldplay. I like the song. It was the only time when I had an idea of the title of the song. These two songs, as mentioned really remind me of a certain person. Whenever i hear these songs, I just can't help not to think about the person. haaayyy. Though this someone started to mess up my life, I am still feeling happy and comfortable whenever where're together and I HATE this feeling! I'ts just so hard to stop myself and for that certain person to lessen or stop messing up my life! grrr. hmp. The only thing i can do is to pray and offer to God the burdens.

Honestly, I don't really understand myself why i still love and keep on listening these two songs behind the ill memories. When I view it in the right way, it is an ill memory really but... happy memory i guess in the opposite way. hahay.

Serious matter

Just this morning, I and my Aunt attended sunday mass at Victoria Plaza mall. We used to attend sunday mass there. Then, I was solemnly listening every word that has been preached until the priest started to read the gospel. Well, the gospel talked about Adultery. Tsk, tsk, tsk. As we all knew, Adultery is one of the deadly sins which was also declared by Moses in his 10 commandments. Upon hearing it, I became more interested to listen every word by heart. I then said to myself, what a perfect sunday to hear that gospel. Well, this scenario or issue is no longer new to individual. As what other say, we're only human who easily get tempted. Talking about temptation, which I also heard from one of the priest months ago in his homely when he said that Temptation is not a Sin. Temptation is just an invitation for you to commit a sin. Yeah right! I really put this into my mind. So, you'll commit a sin if you accept that kind of invitation. It's just up to us whether or not to allow or accept it to happen in our respective life. So, we really have to use our initiative or we must have to think different circumstances to happen before doing so. However, most often we can't avoid it that easily due to our weaknesses as a human being.

Anyway, going back to the gospel... this became an issue to my personal life. Obviously, i lived with this because my biological father has this situation or we have this situation in life. The only thing that made me at ease with this matter was when i learned from the gospel that God did not condemn that woman who committed adultery but He told to that woman to go and see no more. This means that, that woman was not being condemned but told to move on and to start a new life away from committing that sin again. That's so great! God is really so great by forgiving and giving us another chance to live a new life apart from everything. And, this also made me realize why Jesus wanted to be closed to the wicked because He wanted them to come back to the Father and repent.

I'm hoping for my friend to succeed from this serious matter because she is right now struggling. Her conscience keeps on nagging her every time she and that committed man spend time together. As what the both of them told me, they're just loving each other and enjoying the moment when they are together. It's just so sad because the man is legally committed. My friend is really bothered because she never ever expected it to happen and doesn't want to be involved but she started to love the man. She's making ways to avoid it and correct the wrong ones but she's having hard times letting go of it. I'm really hoping and praying for her to get through with it and someday she's gonna meet a man destined for her and having a job she really dreamed of. I'm also hoping for her long lasting happiness rather than that forbidden and short time happiness.

Above all of this, I do appreciate the gospel and the learnings I've got.

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