May 1, 2010

May 1 is a Labor day. In this year, since it falls on Saturday the holiday was moved on Monday. So, employees particularly the Government Offices would really enjoy a long holiday! Hmmm. Anyway, in my personal matter this date marked a remarkable point in life. Why? hmm. Well, it's just that the DAMAGE HAS BEEN DONE. This is how i can simply and accurately describe the incident which becomes remarkable for me. Haayy, it's quite regretful! I don't understand my feelings on that day due to mixed emotions. I wanted to cry yet it's like my mind tried to question me for doing so. My mind is like saying "It happened already, you can't blame anyone else anymore. So. move on and don't let it happen again". Haayy! How i really wish that i could have full control over it. Now i can recall when the times I said to others and to myself that it's impossible to happen to me though I'm not closing my thoughts that it wouldn't happen, it's possible to happen. Well, let me just keep it to myself for now about this burden or the cause of everything of what I'm saying here. I'm a type of person who's very secretive and silent because i just want privacy. My purpose of posting it here is just to unload this heavy feelings i have which I can't dare to open up to somebody else. I don't have the strength yet to share the whole story.

Like I've said, I'm having regrets with the incident happened because it was too unfair. One is not deserving. It would be special though if one deserves it. Well, I excused this moment for now but when it happened for many times, it would be crazy and stupid anymore! I might cursed the one involved and it would be hard for me to forgive myself.