PSI (Powertech Specialists, Inc)

So far, during my 2 weeks and 3 days working in PSI, I'm enjoying their company. I enjoy doing my tasks and I'm actually having fun with them especially with the Technical Engineers and the Cadets (trainees). I am also happy with my boss because he's so nice and friendly. I sometimes make or crack jokes with him and we found ourselves giggling. In short, we're getting close. Well, it's good for me so that I won't be ashamed to open up regarding the work like whenever I have queries and concerns. Right now, I am still adjusting and learning my mistakes. Naks. Well, not too bad I've got many revisions and one of the reasons of the revisions is my carelessness. Argh! However, I am still considered on this since I am still learning and coping up with my mistakes. Sometimes, I feel guilty because my boss is too kind to me, accommodating and very considerate. He is also motivated to teach me everything I need to know and learn eventhough sometimes I feel like my thoughts are flying already while he is discussing. I need spongebob to help me absorb everything. hehe. Well, I'm feeling a bit pressured in my work since I'm under sales. We do have targets and many things to meet and consider. I just hope that I can make good impression to my boss and even my clients and I just don't want my boss to feel disappointed because of me.

Anyway, I have here few pictures from the technical people who are currently working in one of our on going project which is the RCBCBajada branch for Structured Cabling and installation of CCTV camera and Alarm. Hopefully, I can buy and have my dream Digicam so that I can take more pictures. :)

Preparing UTP cables for the CCTV Camera

From left: Sir Pong(Our Boss), Brau(Technical Engineer),Ralph, Marlon, Amor, Ankol Alex, Richard, Mark, Jessie and Me.

This is the Volt Room

Jessie working on the Structured Cabling (Data and Voice Cabling).

The Thoughts in my Mind

Well, it's 9:09 pm here in my lappy's clock. Right now, I am freaky full of jealousy after seeing and found out something! I'm feeling awkward about this because I started to freak out again like feeling discontented and discouraged on something in me which challenges me more. grrr! I can't help myself not to feel jealous (FYI: It has nothing to do with a boy-girl relationship!) It's like, i need someone, whom i used to tell my deepest thoughts and emotions, to talk with. Yet, it made me think again why not type and post it here as a way of unloading and get wrong thoughts and emotions away. The problem with me most often is that I am quite pessimistic.

Honestly, I hate challenges! Like what I always said, I am very much challenged now! However, I don't have the choice but rather go for it and face it. Yeah, I am very much aware that challenges are parcel of life and that we have to fight it. Waaah. I do believe that there would be a lot of challenges that I would be encountering soon especially on that special opportunity to come if God would allow and grant me that. :( Yes, though I feel excited and very delighted when this special opportunity comes to me at the right time, I feel quite sad and afraid for this day to come. It is because I would be faced with another bundle of challenges in my life. I guess the very reason why I'm afraid of challenges is the failure. I am afraid to encounter failure again. However, again I still don't have good choice for myself but rather face it and move on! Well, it's very easy to say this than to do it.

On the good side, I am still thankful for everything especially on my recent Job, having a very nice and accommodating Boss! I salute my boss for being so optimistic, nice, cool and for sharing his expertise and most of all, Gwapo!haha. But, don't you know that I am quite pressured on every good and positive things he is showing to me right now? It's because I am doubting that maybe I won't be able to reach or surpass his expectations and trust to me. I am intimidated to tell him frankly not to expect to much from me, because he really sees like everything positively and he is a very goal-oriented person! I am also intimidated to comment negatively since we are opposite in terms of attitude towards challenges. I just pray to God to bless and guide me for this. OMG!

So, for the jealousy I often times used to feel right now, it's better off to focus on myself for the meantime and do what i suppose to do. I need to be contented at this moment and start earning what i suppose to earn! For God be the Glory! ;)

Good Luck to me!

Making money Online

Hey Guys! Wanna earn money online? Well if your interested on making money online for free, you can just simply click ME or this link, http://www.incentria.com/index.php?ref=kweny for you to register on the website and to get started as well!

Try it! It's guaranteed safe! I have already registered and I am now a member. I am already started earning a little since i am still newbie. I find it WOW!

Drop by at http://www.incentria.com/index.php?ref=kweny

A little light of Hope

Whoaw! Thank you so much. I do really appreciate what had happened to me recently. Oh God, I would like to say thank you a million times for everything. hehe. I thank you more specifically on this little light of hope that I have witnessed and started to believe in. It made me more hopeful and feeling like fulfilling though it's still the beginning and I'm still uncertain of what would be the next one to happen. Yeah, Im not really certain of what would really happen afterwards whether it's a gloomy one or a happy one. Well, I am hoping that this would be a good sign to me and hoping that this little light would continue to light brightly as i struggle until the right time.

I started to believe that specific instance, when like everyhing messed up as an omen or a good omen to me. Fortunately, it was. Hopefully, I would be lucky enough for this. How i really wish that my wishes would be granted to me. However, we can never tell, so we just need to move and fight the battle with unique armors that we have and never lose hope. That is really life!

Agony

I'm so sick of the challenges I'm encountering in my life right now. OMG! I'm greatly challenged. It's like I'm getting afraid facing pains and failures again but that is the reality and parcel of life. I'm just thankful because I stay strong and there is still a little hope in me to fight and move on despite of the pain and failures i have encountered. Yeah, I cannot deny that there is really a time when I feel like giving up. There are times when i also feel inferior! I feel very empty. I have started feeling emptiness when one of my happiness gone away. It hurts! Though Im feeling negative but Im really trying not be overpowered by my pessimistic attitude or else , I would mess up. I used to think then, that maybe God really has another plan and HE still polishing it for me. Naks! I can still feel hopeful that one day Someone and something have already polished for me. So, it made me think that maybe I just need to encounter or experience enough pain and failures and I'd better off this way so that I'd be ready and stronger in struggling my life for the better!

Moreover, one thing that I like and observed in myself is that I can still manage myself to understand why certain things happened to me and move on about it. I was enlightened and started to believe recently that I am a strong person when this new friend of mine told me that I am as well as based on how i manage myself despite of those painful experiences. I still have the strength to keep going and moving! As my defense mechanism I'd say, Maybe this is not yet the right time for me and someone and something better would come to me someday! In God's glory. hehe. I'm trying to divert my sad emotion of course, in order to think better and positive. hehe. Well, I do really have faith in God and hoping to have more faith in Him in every challenges. Hahay, I feel quite relieve right now after what i've typed in here though not everything has been clearly said. It's just a way for me to share and express my emotion and agony.

Expressing the Painful Sensation

I am suffering from 2 severe pains right now. I hate this kind of feelings. As much as i wanted to avoid or let go of it, i don't have the power to do so. It keeps on bothering me really! I just need an answer to one of these pains. I was left hanging by one of the pains that i am struggling. huhu. Lord, just give me the courage and strength for these. However, on the good side, i tried to perceive the other pain as another challenge for me. Though the act is negative, i am trying to see and respond to it positively which is the least i can do. And, in order for me to move on and to give myself more Hopes!

It's kind'a weird! Uhm, I don't want to bother mentioning here these pains in me. I am just like expressing the feeling. Hopefully, i would be able to get through with these. And i believe that time is what i need to help me get over it. How i wish it would just take seconds to heal these f****** pains!

Wholesome Not

What is "MASBATE"? Any idea?

Well, I and my close friend were texting and we were like dragged into a specific topic where i got this weird word. hmmm. I was like curious of what he meant by "MASBATE". For the second time, he said it again and that's the time when i asked him what does this word mean. He was like shocked why i asked and it gave him the perception that i'm really still that innocent in this matter. Then, with no hesitation he perfectly described or explained it to me.

Here's what he said:

"Huhummp! Masbate. d term is used as d act of releasing by d male species of their sexual urges or the sperm, to be precised. (Since he's a guy, He told this..) We do dis by holding our rifle and gently smoothing it up and down.. up and down, repeatedly until it shoots an xplosion of white cream, sperm! $ d female species, you do ds by caressing d cli2ris or d "mani2" of ur castle. Rubing it gently continuosly..feeling for urselves a burning, fulfilling sensation and until u reached d climax point. U will feel an xplosion insyd of u. sumtyms f u rily get n2 d feel, cum will shoot out of ur castle is really wet! Others prefer to do d fingering thng inserting 1-3 fingers in2 d castle's entrance while rubing w/ ur other hand d cli2ris or "mani2". & sumtyms, other insert vibra2rs or even an eggplant! weird! Also masbate is sumtyms intrtwined w/ masturbation! there u go! "

That's it! When i read the first sentence, i then got what it means. Tsk! I really feel like "EWW!" while reading it. But hey, im not being hypocrite here, i'm just too conservative on this matter . He really exerted an effort of defining it for me. toinx!

Thus, "MASBATE" is known as Masturbation or Masturbate. It's like a shortcut name by some people. Westeners call it as Masturbate.