Reminds me of "You"

There I go. I'm loving the songs entitled COLLIDE by Howie Day and SCIENTIST by Coldplay at this time. Though these are no longer new to my ears and i have already heard these years ago, I still find these so fresh, inspiring but they remind me of Someone. Someone who... shall I say..ahmmm. who put stain in my unstained life. Well, let me just keep it to myself about the stain it caused. I won't just bother to elaborate it here. hmm.

Anyway, it started when I opened my cousin's computer and found a compiled acoustic songs from different artists a folder labeled, MP3. Then, I tried and started to play first the song, Collide. I didn't notice until a number of music were played when one particular song playing has the title SCIENTIST by coldplay. I like the song. It was the only time when I had an idea of the title of the song. These two songs, as mentioned really remind me of a certain person. Whenever i hear these songs, I just can't help not to think about the person. haaayyy. Though this someone started to mess up my life, I am still feeling happy and comfortable whenever where're together and I HATE this feeling! I'ts just so hard to stop myself and for that certain person to lessen or stop messing up my life! grrr. hmp. The only thing i can do is to pray and offer to God the burdens.

Honestly, I don't really understand myself why i still love and keep on listening these two songs behind the ill memories. When I view it in the right way, it is an ill memory really but... happy memory i guess in the opposite way. hahay.

Serious matter

Just this morning, I and my Aunt attended sunday mass at Victoria Plaza mall. We used to attend sunday mass there. Then, I was solemnly listening every word that has been preached until the priest started to read the gospel. Well, the gospel talked about Adultery. Tsk, tsk, tsk. As we all knew, Adultery is one of the deadly sins which was also declared by Moses in his 10 commandments. Upon hearing it, I became more interested to listen every word by heart. I then said to myself, what a perfect sunday to hear that gospel. Well, this scenario or issue is no longer new to individual. As what other say, we're only human who easily get tempted. Talking about temptation, which I also heard from one of the priest months ago in his homely when he said that Temptation is not a Sin. Temptation is just an invitation for you to commit a sin. Yeah right! I really put this into my mind. So, you'll commit a sin if you accept that kind of invitation. It's just up to us whether or not to allow or accept it to happen in our respective life. So, we really have to use our initiative or we must have to think different circumstances to happen before doing so. However, most often we can't avoid it that easily due to our weaknesses as a human being.

Anyway, going back to the gospel... this became an issue to my personal life. Obviously, i lived with this because my biological father has this situation or we have this situation in life. The only thing that made me at ease with this matter was when i learned from the gospel that God did not condemn that woman who committed adultery but He told to that woman to go and see no more. This means that, that woman was not being condemned but told to move on and to start a new life away from committing that sin again. That's so great! God is really so great by forgiving and giving us another chance to live a new life apart from everything. And, this also made me realize why Jesus wanted to be closed to the wicked because He wanted them to come back to the Father and repent.

I'm hoping for my friend to succeed from this serious matter because she is right now struggling. Her conscience keeps on nagging her every time she and that committed man spend time together. As what the both of them told me, they're just loving each other and enjoying the moment when they are together. It's just so sad because the man is legally committed. My friend is really bothered because she never ever expected it to happen and doesn't want to be involved but she started to love the man. She's making ways to avoid it and correct the wrong ones but she's having hard times letting go of it. I'm really hoping and praying for her to get through with it and someday she's gonna meet a man destined for her and having a job she really dreamed of. I'm also hoping for her long lasting happiness rather than that forbidden and short time happiness.

Above all of this, I do appreciate the gospel and the learnings I've got.

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Year Twenty-O-nine

Twenty-O-nine (2009) had bid farewell just a month ago. As it ended, I realized and started to recall all the things that happened to me during the whole year of 2009. I can really say that it made a remarkable moment in my life. Remarkable in the sense that, I got my college diploma, I started to experience the reality of life, I've got deep failures, I had my first job experience and of course, I got a job. I also have undergone many and different events and scenarios of happiness, struggles, burdens and many things that really put colors for the year 2009.

During that year, the worst scenario that I've ever encountered in my whole life was when "married" men were seriously and madly revealing their deepest affections toward me. The first one and the second one, since this scenario happened twice. In fairness, those men were young, admirable and gentle. I would just only be drooling on them. According to them, they never expected and intended to feel that intense affection for me. It just happened unintentionally. When it happened for the second time, I noticed from both of them that they have similar reasons and confessions. It was really not easy especially when you found the characteristics of your ideal man to them. I was so amazed of this experience because I really find it so awkward, uneasy and terrible. It made me wonder why it came to this point where in fact, I did nothing and I even did not seduce or show interest to them since I know that they can't be mine anymore. Truly! Eventually, I continued to fight for what is right even how hard it was.

I also felt so much depression and frustrations. I started to hate challenges when I was greatly challenged of the things I was facing. Yet, I kept trying to view it in a positive way to uplift and give hope to myself. Consequently, I become mature despite all of these. It gave me a realization of what really life is. It also teaches me to have more faith to God, to accept reality and to move on for the better!

I am so thankful for the Year 2009 for all the pleasant and unpleasant experiences that I've gone through.

Behind forwarded messages

(FYI: Not chain messages)

We may sometimes wonder why people keep on forwarding messages to us that would make our inbox full. Anyway, here 's the essence and the truth behind this forwarded messages...

"I am very busy, but still want to keep in touch";
"I have nothing to say, but still want to stay connected";
"I have something to say, but dont know what & how to say it";
"I just want to let you know that you are Remembered."

How sweet!

The 2nd time gets worst

I'm really bothered now about this strange feeling for me which is a taboo that hits me for the second time. I'm feeling uneasy and I hate to pretend. I hardly concentrate because it keeps on bothering me which annoys me when it gets too much. I can hardly stop my mind from not thinking about it after the confession has made. A forbidden confession. Somehow, he's able to confront it as early as now. At first, i already sensed that it's getting something unusual yet i just ignore it because im thinking that maybe I'm only the one giving meaning or maybe it's just the normal Him. At first I'm happy because he acted this way to me and I'm feeling flattered since i'm still new. I can feel no malice until the time came for me to be awaken with this unusualness. Even from the start, people close to me are already bothered and warning me about the stories I told them and the closeness that we started to build which for me, it's nothing and it's only friendship. I will only say and tell them to trust me. My intention is very clean. Whenever he invites me just for anything I used to go with him thinking again that maybe he just need company and a friend whom he can share his deepest thoughts and someone who can understand him the way I can. I sometimes get annoyed when people judged me differently. Well, i knew for a fact that they're acting like this because they're just concerned about me and they are afraid of something bad or taboo to happen between us. I am very much aware of it and I don't wanna involved on it.

Now, it happened when he confronted me. I can feel this strange feeling! I don't want to grow this feeling as what i told him. Yet, i was almost weaken to hold on to what is right. Luckily somehow, I was strong enough to stop him and nagged him because I'm just thinking and doing the right one. I just can't help myself thinking everything. I guess, I'm feeling this way and i was too affected then because I find myself fallen already for Him. Now, I'm trying to let go of it and trying to stop this ill feeling! OMG! It made me then to rememmber the first time it hit me. A forbidden love. I experienced it before just recently in my previous work but it's not that worst as i have experienced now. I considered it as worst because this abnormality affects me more deeply than the first time. I was very resistable before than now. How I really wish for him and for us to move on and forget in just a second and go back to normal. hayy!

PSI (Powertech Specialists, Inc)

So far, during my 2 weeks and 3 days working in PSI, I'm enjoying their company. I enjoy doing my tasks and I'm actually having fun with them especially with the Technical Engineers and the Cadets (trainees). I am also happy with my boss because he's so nice and friendly. I sometimes make or crack jokes with him and we found ourselves giggling. In short, we're getting close. Well, it's good for me so that I won't be ashamed to open up regarding the work like whenever I have queries and concerns. Right now, I am still adjusting and learning my mistakes. Naks. Well, not too bad I've got many revisions and one of the reasons of the revisions is my carelessness. Argh! However, I am still considered on this since I am still learning and coping up with my mistakes. Sometimes, I feel guilty because my boss is too kind to me, accommodating and very considerate. He is also motivated to teach me everything I need to know and learn event hough sometimes I feel like my thoughts are flying already while he is discussing. I need spongebob to help me absorb everything. hehe. Well, I'm feeling a bit pressured in my work since I'm under sales. We do have targets and many things to meet and consider. I just hope that I can make good impression to my boss and even my clients and I just don't want my boss to feel disappointed because of me.

Anyway, I have here few pictures from the technical people who are currently working in one of our on going projects which is the RCBCBajada branch for Structured Cabling and installation of CCTV camera and Alarm. Hopefully, I can buy and have my dream Digicam so that I can take more pictures. :)

Preparing UTP cables for the CCTV Camera

From left: Sir Pong(Our Boss), Brau(Technical Engineer),Ralph, Marlon, Amor, Ankol Alex, Richard, Mark, Jessie and Me.

This is the Vault Room

Jessie working on the Structured Cabling (Data and Voice Cabling).