I'm so sick of the challenges I'm encountering in my life right now. OMG! I'm greatly challenged. It's like I'm getting afraid facing pains and failures again but that is the reality and parcel of life. I'm just thankful because I stay strong and there is still a little hope in me to fight and move on despite of the pain and failures i have encountered. Yeah, I cannot deny that there is really a time when I feel like giving up. There are times when i also feel inferior! I feel very empty. I have started feeling emptiness when one of my happiness gone away. It hurts! Though Im feeling negative but Im really trying not be overpowered by my pessimistic attitude or else , I would mess up. I used to think then, that maybe God really has another plan and HE still polishing it for me. Naks! I can still feel hopeful that one day Someone and something have already polished for me. So, it made me think that maybe I just need to encounter or experience enough pain and failures and I'd better off this way so that I'd be ready and stronger in struggling my life for the better!
Moreover, one thing that I like and observed in myself is that I can still manage to understand why certain things happened to me and move on about it. I was enlightened and started to believe recently that I am a strong person when this new friend of mine told me that I am. As well as based on how i manage myself despite of those painful experiences. I still have the strength to keep going and moving! As my defense mechanism I'd say, Maybe this is not yet the right time for me and someone and something better would come to me someday! In God's glory. hehe. I'm trying to divert my sad emotion of course, in order to think better and positive. hehe. Well, I do really have faith in God and hoping to have more faith in Him in every challenges I'm gonna encounter. Hahay, I feel quite relieve right now after what i've typed in here though not everything has been clearly said. It's just a way for me to share and express my emotion and agony.
Moreover, one thing that I like and observed in myself is that I can still manage to understand why certain things happened to me and move on about it. I was enlightened and started to believe recently that I am a strong person when this new friend of mine told me that I am. As well as based on how i manage myself despite of those painful experiences. I still have the strength to keep going and moving! As my defense mechanism I'd say, Maybe this is not yet the right time for me and someone and something better would come to me someday! In God's glory. hehe. I'm trying to divert my sad emotion of course, in order to think better and positive. hehe. Well, I do really have faith in God and hoping to have more faith in Him in every challenges I'm gonna encounter. Hahay, I feel quite relieve right now after what i've typed in here though not everything has been clearly said. It's just a way for me to share and express my emotion and agony.
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