Feeling Disturbed!

Honestly, I get a little bit worried and alarmed at this moment in terms of my money or finances. Yesterday, I with him went to NCCC mall and we saw and read the Chinese Fortune according to year of birth for this year. Of course I searched directly for the year of the Dragon. On what I've read, it keeps on flashing into my mind from time to time and I'm just afraid on what does it really tells me, what's behind it. On the message, it simply says that I have to save my money etc, etc. However, it sounds different to me which alarmed me and I feel uncomfortable. I'm a bit worried, really. OMG! I just hope that I would be prepared if anything happens and hoping and wishing also that I would be able to curse the bad luck. hmp!

It makes me aware of my expenses and my enough-for-myself money. In fact, I have my savings right now but It has already a purpose. And I am still planning to save for another purpose again, for my own personal wants. Hopefully I can have a spare of my money to save for future need purposes. Actually, I have plans of it, it's just that I don't have more than enough earnings for the meantime. Like I've said, my earning is only enough for my own as for now. How I wish... hmmm.

Blessed!

First of all, I'd like to send my gratitude to our God! I thank you Lord for all the countless blessings & graces you've been showering me. I really feel so blessed in my simple life! Everything goes smoothly with God's blessings and guidance in all aspects of my life. I sometimes feel guilty of my responses for all of these. It's also like I feel so selfish 'coz every time I pray I always prioritize myself before others which is, I guess and based from observation, it should be others first before yourself. Yet, I am very much thankful 'coz God still listens to me and granted me my prayers. hehe. In fairness, I never fail to thank God every time I pray and every time I go to church. This is the first words I always have whenever I pray.

Well, I am finally regularized in my current job! This is what I longed at the beginning to be regularized at that short span and right time. I feel a little bit overwhelm that I was able to get it that smoothly. I am just so lucky enough and of course thankful for the people who are there to help and care for me. And with this, I do believe that God is always there by my side and guiding me. This increases my faith in Him.

I just hope and pray that as I go on with my career and journey in life, I still have this smooth road with God. That I may be able to gradually realize my goals and dreams in life. Thank you so much! :D

Heart's Day

February 14, 2011 is a Valentine's Day. It's when LOVE has been emphasized and celebrated with Roses and balloons by most couples especially lovers! Well, I and Him had a romantic dinner at the "Entree" inside Apo view Hotel which is a quite pricey and very romantic place. I like it there especially the food. I can say that they serve best and yummy buffet. I love it! Ahm, I enjoyed the dinner with him inspite of the misunderstanding we had have later at that moment. Anyway, I just felt guilty because I failed to Thank him for his efforts and for bringing me to that place. Tsk. I should somehow say "Thank you" despite of the misunderstanding we had due to my immaturity again. Grr! He got so sensitive 'coz he feels so insecure in me which is always a reason of our misunderstanding most often. This is because I am not that showy or expressive to him which give him ill thoughts. Yeah I understand and I just hope that I would be able to express my love to him little by little.

Fortunately, when we had to part ways after he dropped me home we managed to neutralize our bitter emotions. We then had shared a little laughter for about an hour. Yet, for me it was not just enough 'coz I wasn't able to tell him something inspiring and romantic thoughts to share with him during this special occasion. And, I wasn't able to Thank and say the three-magic-word to him personally! I just hope that He would feel my heart and believe that I am serious with him. I hope that he would understand me. And, I do hope that I would be able to express my emotions freely with no hesitation and any other awkwardness.

I received a Big Heart Balloon from Him with the ribbons laces at the bottom which he was the one who decorated it with sweats and 99.9% effort! wow! hehe. This is what I like the most about him! :D While this Red rose is a souvenir from Entree. Nice!

Bonding @ Eden Nature Park

Last weekend, Feb. 5-6, 2011 he made a reservation for the two of us at Eden Nature Park in Toril, Davao City. This is one of our bonding moments together. So happy for his efforts! Looking forward having more of it as we keep going... mwah!