Behind forwarded messages

(FYI: Not chain messages)

We may sometimes wonder why people keep on forwarding messages to us that would make our inbox full. Anyway, here 's the essence and the truth behind this forwarded messages...

"I am very busy, but still want to keep in touch";
"I have nothing to say, but still want to stay connected";
"I have something to say, but dont know what & how to say it";
"I just want to let you know that you are Remembered."

How sweet!

The 2nd time gets worst

I'm really bothered now about this strange feeling for me which is a taboo that hits me for the second time. I'm feeling uneasy and I hate to pretend. I hardly concentrate because it keeps on bothering me which annoys me when it gets too much. I can hardly stop my mind from not thinking about it after the confession has made. A forbidden confession. Somehow, he's able to confront it as early as now. At first, i already sensed that it's getting something unusual yet i just ignore it because im thinking that maybe I'm only the one giving meaning or maybe it's just the normal Him. At first I'm happy because he acted this way to me and I'm feeling flattered since i'm still new. I can feel no malice until the time came for me to be awaken with this unusualness. Even from the start, people close to me are already bothered and warning me about the stories I told them and the closeness that we started to build which for me, it's nothing and it's only friendship. I will only say and tell them to trust me. My intention is very clean. Whenever he invites me just for anything I used to go with him thinking again that maybe he just need company and a friend whom he can share his deepest thoughts and someone who can understand him the way I can. I sometimes get annoyed when people judged me differently. Well, i knew for a fact that they're acting like this because they're just concerned about me and they are afraid of something bad or taboo to happen between us. I am very much aware of it and I don't wanna involved on it.

Now, it happened when he confronted me. I can feel this strange feeling! I don't want to grow this feeling as what i told him. Yet, i was almost weaken to hold on to what is right. Luckily somehow, I was strong enough to stop him and nagged him because I'm just thinking and doing the right one. I just can't help myself thinking everything. I guess, I'm feeling this way and i was too affected then because I find myself fallen already for Him. Now, I'm trying to let go of it and trying to stop this ill feeling! OMG! It made me then to rememmber the first time it hit me. A forbidden love. I experienced it before just recently in my previous work but it's not that worst as i have experienced now. I considered it as worst because this abnormality affects me more deeply than the first time. I was very resistable before than now. How I really wish for him and for us to move on and forget in just a second and go back to normal. hayy!

PSI (Powertech Specialists, Inc)

So far, during my 2 weeks and 3 days working in PSI, I'm enjoying their company. I enjoy doing my tasks and I'm actually having fun with them especially with the Technical Engineers and the Cadets (trainees). I am also happy with my boss because he's so nice and friendly. I sometimes make or crack jokes with him and we found ourselves giggling. In short, we're getting close. Well, it's good for me so that I won't be ashamed to open up regarding the work like whenever I have queries and concerns. Right now, I am still adjusting and learning my mistakes. Naks. Well, not too bad I've got many revisions and one of the reasons of the revisions is my carelessness. Argh! However, I am still considered on this since I am still learning and coping up with my mistakes. Sometimes, I feel guilty because my boss is too kind to me, accommodating and very considerate. He is also motivated to teach me everything I need to know and learn event hough sometimes I feel like my thoughts are flying already while he is discussing. I need spongebob to help me absorb everything. hehe. Well, I'm feeling a bit pressured in my work since I'm under sales. We do have targets and many things to meet and consider. I just hope that I can make good impression to my boss and even my clients and I just don't want my boss to feel disappointed because of me.

Anyway, I have here few pictures from the technical people who are currently working in one of our on going projects which is the RCBCBajada branch for Structured Cabling and installation of CCTV camera and Alarm. Hopefully, I can buy and have my dream Digicam so that I can take more pictures. :)

Preparing UTP cables for the CCTV Camera

From left: Sir Pong(Our Boss), Brau(Technical Engineer),Ralph, Marlon, Amor, Ankol Alex, Richard, Mark, Jessie and Me.

This is the Vault Room

Jessie working on the Structured Cabling (Data and Voice Cabling).

The Thoughts in my Mind

Well, it's 9:09 pm here in my lappy's clock. Right now, I am freaky full of jealousy after seeing and found out something! I'm feeling awkward about this because I started to freak out again like feeling discontented and discouraged on something in me which challenges me more. grrr! I can't help myself not to feel jealous (FYI: It has nothing to do with a boy-girl relationship!) It's like, i need someone, whom i used to tell my deepest thoughts and emotions, to talk with. Yet, it made me think again why not type and post it here as a way of unloading and get wrong thoughts and emotions away. The problem with me most often is that I am quite pessimistic.

Honestly, I hate challenges! Like what I always said, I am very much challenged now! However, I don't have the choice but rather go for it and face it. Yeah, I am very much aware that challenges are parcel of life and that we have to fight it. Waaah. I do believe that there would be a lot of challenges that I would be encountering soon especially on that special opportunity to come if God would allow and grant me that. :( Yes, though I feel excited and very delighted when this special opportunity comes to me at the right time, I feel quite sad and afraid for this day to come. It is because I would be faced with another bundle of challenges in my life. I guess the very reason why I'm afraid of challenges is the failure. I am afraid to encounter failure again. However, again I still don't have good choice for myself but rather face it and move on! Well, it's very easy to say this than to do it.

On the good side, I am still thankful for everything especially on my recent Job, having a very nice and accommodating Boss! I salute my boss for being so optimistic, nice, cool and for sharing his expertise and most of all, Gwapo!haha. But, don't you know that I am quite pressured on every good and positive things he is showing to me right now? It's because I am doubting that maybe I won't be able to reach or surpass his expectations and trust to me. I am intimidated to tell him frankly not to expect to much from me, because he really sees like everything positively and he is a very goal-oriented person! I am also intimidated to comment negatively since we are opposite in terms of attitude towards challenges. I just pray to God to bless and guide me for this. OMG!

So, for the jealousy I often times used to feel right now, it's better off to focus on myself for the meantime and do what i suppose to do. I need to be contented at this moment and start earning what i suppose to earn! For God be the Glory! ;)

Good Luck to me!

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A little light of Hope

Whoaw! Thank you so much. I do really appreciate what had happened to me recently. Oh God, I would like to say thank you a million times for everything. hehe. I thank you more specifically on this little light of hope that I have witnessed and started to believe in. It made me more hopeful and feeling like fulfilling though it's still the beginning and I'm still uncertain of what would be the next one to happen. Yeah, Im not really certain of what would really happen afterwards whether it's a gloomy one or a happy one. Well, I am hoping that this would be a good sign to me and hoping that this little light would continue to light brightly as i struggle until the right time.

I started to believe that specific instance, when like everyhing messed up as an omen or a good omen to me. Fortunately, it was. Hopefully, I would be lucky enough for this. How i really wish that my wishes would be granted to me. However, we can never tell, so we just need to move and fight the battle with unique armors that we have and never lose hope. That is really life!

Agony

I'm so sick of the challenges I'm encountering in my life right now. OMG! I'm greatly challenged. It's like I'm getting afraid facing pains and failures again but that is the reality and parcel of life. I'm just thankful because I stay strong and there is still a little hope in me to fight and move on despite of the pain and failures i have encountered. Yeah, I cannot deny that there is really a time when I feel like giving up. There are times when i also feel inferior! I feel very empty. I have started feeling emptiness when one of my happiness gone away. It hurts! Though Im feeling negative but Im really trying not be overpowered by my pessimistic attitude or else , I would mess up. I used to think then, that maybe God really has another plan and HE still polishing it for me. Naks! I can still feel hopeful that one day Someone and something have already polished for me. So, it made me think that maybe I just need to encounter or experience enough pain and failures and I'd better off this way so that I'd be ready and stronger in struggling my life for the better!

Moreover, one thing that I like and observed in myself is that I can still manage to understand why certain things happened to me and move on about it. I was enlightened and started to believe recently that I am a strong person when this new friend of mine told me that I am. As well as based on how i manage myself despite of those painful experiences. I still have the strength to keep going and moving! As my defense mechanism I'd say, Maybe this is not yet the right time for me and someone and something better would come to me someday! In God's glory. hehe. I'm trying to divert my sad emotion of course, in order to think better and positive. hehe. Well, I do really have faith in God and hoping to have more faith in Him in every challenges I'm gonna encounter. Hahay, I feel quite relieve right now after what i've typed in here though not everything has been clearly said. It's just a way for me to share and express my emotion and agony.

Expressing the Painful Sensation

I am suffering from 2 severe pains right now. I hate this kind of feelings. As much as i wanted to avoid or let go of it, i don't have the power to do so. It keeps on bothering me really! I just need an answer to one of these pains. I was left hanging by one of the pains that i am struggling. huhu. Lord, just give me the courage and strength for these. However, on the good side, i tried to perceive the other pain as another challenge for me. Though the act is negative, i am trying to see and respond to it positively. And, in order for me to move on and to give myself more Hopes!

It's kind'a weird! Uhm, I don't want to bother mentioning here these pains in me. I am just like expressing the feeling. Hopefully, i would be able to get through with these. And i believe that time is what i need to help me get over it. How i wish it would just take seconds to heal these f****** pains!

Wholesome Not

What is "MASBATE"? Any idea?

Well, I and my close friend were texting and we were like dragged into a specific topic where i got this weird word. hmmm. I was like curious of what he meant by "MASBATE". For the second time, he said it again and that's the time when i asked him what does this word mean. He was like shocked why i asked and it gave him the perception that i'm really still that innocent in this matter. Then, with no hesitation he perfectly described or explained it to me.

Here's what he said:

"Huhummp! Masbate. d term is used as d act of releasing by d male species of their sexual urges or the sperm, to be precised. (Since he's a guy, He told this..) We do dis by holding our rifle and gently smoothing it up and down.. up and down, repeatedly until it shoots an xplosion of white cream, sperm! $ d female species, you do ds by caressing d cli2ris or d "mani2" of ur castle. Rubing it gently continuosly..feeling for urselves a burning, fulfilling sensation and until u reached d climax point. U will feel an xplosion insyd of u. sumtyms f u rily get n2 d feel, cum will shoot out of ur castle is really wet! Others prefer to do d fingering thng inserting 1-3 fingers in2 d castle's entrance while rubing w/ ur other hand d cli2ris or "mani2". & sumtyms, other insert vibra2rs or even an eggplant! weird! Also masbate is sumtyms intrtwined w/ masturbation! there u go! "

That's it! When i read the first sentence, i then got what it means. Tsk! I really feel like "EWW!" while reading it. But hey, im not being hypocrite here, i'm just too conservative on this matter . He really exerted an effort of defining it for me. toinx!

Thus, "MASBATE" is known as Masturbation or Masturbate. It's like a shortcut name by some people. Westeners call it as Masturbate.

yahoo! - Thank You!

Wow! I did feel like overwhelmed knowing that i will be receiving my first salary in my ever first job or employer! When i told my Mom about it, she congratulated me and i can feel it that she is very happy for me and for herself as well. I can say that she feels contented and also proud to herself because despite the fact that she is a single parent, she was able to successfully raise her children well. Well, last night, i got my salary through my ATM debit card. nakz! Just today, i give some share to my Auntie and his family since i am staying with them in their house. And of course, i have to offer some amount to the church as my Thanks giving and Thanks offering. I'm so thankful in everything that happened to me right now. Despite of some failures, depressions and pain i felt, i still have the courage and strength to move on and face the truth of life. Yeah, now I do believe the saying, At the end of the tunnel there is always light! You really need to undergo hardship and painful experiences before you'll get into it and you would feel like in a "cloud 9". Since this is my first step in the real world, i can't really deny that i am greatly challenged and i almost gave up due to those challenges and my negative perceptions. Luckily, because of my faith in God i was able to accept the reality little by little and trying to view things positively.

I really do experience surprises or unexpected circumstances like in my job right now. We experienced a very big surprise which turned some of us disappointed when we knew that unexpected decision or announcement from our Boss. Now, I and my batch are not yet certain of what would really happen since we are still under training. I can still consider my Job as of this moment as UNSTABLE though I am already hired by the company. hahay.. I am still hoping that everything would go better and successful. In fact, i always ask God's guidance, more blessings, strengths and good health for me to handle everything and to do the best that i can. I admit that i am struggling right now and trying to take it easily so that i would be able to achieve the things that i want to achieve slowly but surely. toinx!

Hush Hush – Pussycat Dolls

I love this song!


Hush Hush – Pussycat Dolls Music Code


Oooooh ooooh

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointin’ out my wrongs
i never needed pain,i never needed strain.
My love for you was strong enough you should’ve known.
I never needed you for judgement
I never needed you to question what i spent
I never asked for help, I take care of myself, I don’t know why you think you got a hold on me.
And it’s a little in the conversations
There isn’t anything that you can say.
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so look at me and listen to me because,

I don’t want to
Stay another minute
I don’t want you
To say a single word
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
There is no other way
I get the final say
Because
I don’t want to
Do this any longer
I don’t want you
There’s nothing left to say
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I’ve already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby Hush Hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how i act to what i say
i never needed words, i never needed hurt, i never needed you to be there everyday
I’m sorry for the way i let go
Of everything i wanted when you came along
But i am never beaten, broken, not defeated
I know next to you is not where i belong
And it’s a little late for explanations
There isn’t anything that you can do
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so you will listen when i say baby

I don’t want to
Stay another minute
I don’t want you
To say a single word
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
There is no other way
I get the final say
Because
I don’t want to
Do this any longer
I don’t want you
There’s nothing left to say
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I’ve already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby Hush Hush

No more words
No more lies
No more crying ooh ooh
No more pain
No more hurt
No more tryin’ Oh Oh Yeah
Because

I don’t want to
Stay another minute
I don’t want you
To say a single word
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
There is no other way
I get the final say
Because
I don’t want to
Do this any longer
I don’t want you
There’s nothing left to say
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I’ve already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby Hush Hush

Yeah Oh
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I’ve already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby

So far away - Bamboo

So far away
Doesn’t anybody stay in one place anymore
It would be so fine to see your face at my door
Doesn’t help to know that you’re just time away
Long ago I reached for you and there you stood
Holding you again could only do me good
How I wish I could, but you’re so far away
One more song about movin’ along the highway
Can’t say much of anything that’s new
If I could only work this life out my way
I’d rather spend it bein’ close to you

But you’re so far away
You’re so far away
Travelin’ around sure gets me down and lonely
Nothin’ else to do but close my mindI sure hope the road don’t come to own me
But there’s so many dreams I’ve yet to find

But you’re so far away
Doesn’t anybody stay in one place anymore
It would be so fine to see your face at my door
And it doesn’t help to know, it doesn’t help to knowIt doesn’t help to know

You’re so far away

Take time to Realize

" no matter how we try to be mature...

we will always be a kid
when we all get hurt
and cry.."


Think about it! Isn't it true? hehe.

The moment of fulfilment

These are some of my graduation pictures. I finally get my degree!

Movie Marathon

Tonight, i just finished viewing two movies, the Notebook and Slumdog Millionaire. Is it still called movie marathon?? Since i only viewed only two movies.hehe . At last, i have already watched Slumdog Millionaire. It was the talked of the class and of the others just recently. Well, i also watched the "The Notebook" then. Wow! I wasn't able to resist my tears to fall on my cheeks. It is a great movie! I like it! I never really expected that i'm gonna break down as well. haha. I like the story. Though I already heard about it when i was still fourth year high school, almost 4 years ago, when i watched it recently, that's the time that i appreciated this movie! Because before i was thinking that the movie is boring, I made a biggest mistake! It is indeed great! I like Ryan Gosling there. He's so handsome!

Slumdog Millionaire is also a great movie. It's a bit fun but later on, it gets serious. The children were so pity. Anyway, i will be viewing again more movies in my collected movies folder. I have still a lot of movies to watch! uh uh!

Did you know?

Well, my classmate sent me a text message and it goes like this...

If you're about to undergo a painful experience,
try drinking more water.

According to research, thirsty people are more sensitive to pain!
-Readers Digest.

Really? I'll try to drink lots of water whenever i feel depressed and hurt. hehe. A water therapy! Some said as well that eating banana can relieve the pain. That's good!

Moment of Truth

Moment Of Truth - Fm Static Music Code

Here we are, in the best years of our lives.
With no way of knowing, when the
whee’ll stop spinning cause we don’t
know where we’re going…
and here we are, on the best day of our lives.
And it’s a go, lets make it last, so cheers you
all to that, ’cause this moment’s never comin’ back

I used to know her brother, but I never
knew I loved her, ’till the day she laid her
eyes on me. Now I’m jumpin’ up and down,
she’s the only one around, and she means
every little thing to me

I’ve got your picture in my wallet, and your
Phone number to call it, and I miss you more,
Whenever I think about you,. I’ve got
your mixed tape in my Walkman, been so
long since we’ve been talkin’ and in a few
more days, we’ll both hook up, forever and ever

And here I am, on the west coast of
American and I’ve been tryin’ to think for weeks of
all the ways to ask you, And now
I’ve brought you to the place, Where I’ve
poured my heart out, a million times, for a million
reasons, To offer it to you
I used to know her brother, but I never
knew I loved her, ’till the day she laid her
eyes on me. Now I’m jumpin’ up and down,
she’s the only one around, and she means
every little thing to me

I’ve got your picture in my wallet, and your
Phone number to call it, and I miss you more,
Whenever I think about you,. I’ve got
your mixed tape in my Walkman, been so
long since we’ve been talkin’ and in a few
more days, we’ll both hook up, forever and ever

I used to know her brother, but I never
knew I loved her, ’till the day she laid her
eyes on me. Now I’m jumpin’ up and down,
she’s the only one around, and she means
every little thing to me

I’ve got your picture in my wallet, and your
Phone number to call it, and I miss you more,
Whenever I think about you,. I’ve got
your mixed tape in my Walkman, been so
long since we’ve been talkin’ and in a few
more days, we’ll both hook up, forever and ever

Do Re Mi

This is a very naughty picture. How do you find it guys?

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nice one!